I sit here today, looking out my window onto the world and I see shadows on the grass from the tree branches highlighted by the sun and I see wild rabbits foraging for food, fighting the squirrels for what they can find. I hear cars buzzing by on the street and here I sit in my little corner of the world, trying to figure out what is my purpose?
When I retired, I thought that God wanted me to write and share His story of love, redemption, and grace. To share the story of following Jesus is the only way to Heaven. So, I wrote a small book, sharing my story of hope and encouragement through my faith walk and a way for me to Honor the Lord. Once I accomplished that, then I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to do.
So as I prayed about it, I continued to write my blogs, this one and another one I write about Living with Autism (see sidebar) and I knew there was more, I could sense it deep within me, but waiting for the answer wasn’t easy; I never have been very patient.
When our grandson was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, I knew that my being able to retire, and be at peace about it, wasn’t so much about me changing my life, but by being available to help this little guy grow and learn and advocate for him every day, which would have been harder to do if I was still working full time. I thank Jesus for this opportunity daily to be a blessing in his life and I pray Jesus will continue to guide me to make the best decisions for him.
I still feel like this is not enough, but I don’t know why I feel this way. Is God calling me to something more or am I wanting more than what I am already doing? I honestly don’t know.
As I sit and glance out my window, I know I miss the interactions with lots of people that I had on a daily basis when I was working. Now, most of my interactions happen online, because I cannot go anywhere and everywhere I would like due to being on a fixed income. I am not complaining as I have made great friendships online, just as strong as friends I have known all my life and can reach out to at a moment’s notice.
I just want to make sure that every single day that I have breath, that I am honoring the Lord, sharing how he can turn any mess into a message of hope, how he can turn any test I face into a testimony. I want people to see so much of Jesus in my life, that they will want the same thing to and trying to convey how much He has impacted my life, isn’t always easy at a computer screen.
Even in my doubting times, God loves me. Even when I have no idea what my next step is, He loves me. He loves me when I am angry, sad, joyful, bitter, resentful and hopeful. He doesn’t care how long or short my hair is, of whether I am dressed to the nines or wearing the grungiest close I have. He cares more about the condition of my heart, than how I appear outwardly. He knows I make mistakes and falter on a regular basis, but he doesn’t give up on me; he waits for me to come to Him in prayer and seek forgiveness and shows me love that only HE can show.
1 Samuel 16:7New Living Translation (NLT)
7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Don’t judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The Lord doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
He can do the same for you! I will be still and wait patiently on the Lord, and until I am sure what he wants me to do, I will trust in Him. I know my work here on earth is not done, and I know He has plans for me. Never lose hope, always trust, always have faith. God is with all of us!
May you know how much Jesus Loves You! #HopeAlways#HaveFaith
Blessings to all!
Prayer is one of the most powerful tools there is. I can honestly speak from experience. Yesterday was one of the worst days for me. I was ready to give up AND then my prayer warriors and total strangers prayed for God to invade my body and give me peace.
Today, has been a great day! Pain levels have been considerably lower. Completed work that needed done. Spent the evening out with my husband and friends, enjoying life. I’ve learned not only is it important for me to seek the Lord, when you ask others to pray, miracles happen.
Thank you Jesus for your never ending, ever faithful love and mercy.
May you know Jesus Loves You!
Blessings to you! #HopeAlways#HaveFaith
There was a man who walked on this Earth about two-thousand years ago named Jesus. In fact, every time you write the date on a check you attest to the reality of his existence. There are some today who say he was a great teacher. Others say he was a prophet. But Jesus claimed to […]
Sleep was erratic. Seals were broken numerous times. Excuses danced around in my mind. The alarm sounded. As I flipped back the covers and swung my legs over the side of my bed this morning, I thought of all the reasons I could stay home and not venture out into the cold, brisk air. For a split second, the idea of burrowing under the covers for the remainder of the day was very appealing to me.
That’s exactly what the devil wanted. Not today Satan.
As I slowly and purposely maneuvered down each stair step, and secretly wished I could just bound up and down the stairs as I used to, I found our grandson waiting at the bottom – arms outstretched wanting to be picked up with the cutest smile on his face. At that very moment, I thanked Jesus for the blessings he gives me daily. I couldn’t wait to get to church and spend some time praising and worshipping the King of Kings!
Winding my way through the maze of people at church, chatting it up with friends and giving and receiving hugs, I found my way to our seats. As I juggled my handbag, several coats and a cup of hot tea, I placed my cane on the chair in front of me. I knew I would need it. Most Sunday’s I choose to sit and sing from my seat during worship times. It’s an easy way for me to take a break from the pain I have; today I chose to honor the Lord with ALL I have and ALL I am. And as I stood and sung with every fiber of by being, my heart swelled; my pain was there, but it wasn’t so unbearable that I couldn’t stand through a few songs. Thoughts tried to break through saying, ‘you know you would feel better if you sit down.’ Not today Satan.
Lately, I have found that if I allow the stress of my day to gnaw at me and I don’t let it roll off of me and give it to Jesus, the devil comes along and tries to steal my joy. I can stand firm in my faith and know that Jesus is working everything out for me. I am learning that how I look at life, is quite different from other people in my life see it and I can do my best to understand things from their point of view or I can allow Satan to work on us and allow bitterness to take hold and bickering to ensue to the point that I don’t care what happens in those relationships. The enemy is good at plotting and destruction. I can say ‘Not today Satan.’
God tells us in His word that the devil comes to steal, kill and destroy, but that He came to give us life abundantly.
John 10:10 New American Standard Bible (NASB)
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they (A)may have life, and [a]have it abundantly.
When I chose to follow Jesus as my Savior, my life became abundant in blessings and favor I would never had seen otherwise. God loves us and he gave us the best gift we could ever have. His son. I always have a choice and so do you.
Last week, I melted. If tears could cause a person to dissolve, I would’ve been a puddle for sure. I do my best to stay focused on the Lord, but sometimes life gets the best of me. I forget to turn it ALL over to the Lord. I pray, but I don’t realize that I need to totally surrender to the Lord. He already knows what I need.
I can choose to see all the things I need to work on in my life as dead ends OR I can choose to see how many times Jesus has carried me in the palm of His hand, when I was too weak to take that next step. As I allow the Lord to soften my heart and show love and kindness, as he did, the walls of anger and resentment start to fall away.
We must keep our eyes on Jesus. We must trust in His Word for us. His love endures forever. So the next time, you feel like you’re being pulled into a direction that is not of the Lord, simply stand firm in your faith and declare – Not today Satan.
Thank you for my life. Thank you for your grace and mercy. Thank you for dying on the cross and shedding your blood from me. Lord forgive me when I fail to remember that you are with me . When I am weak and have no strength; you are my strength. When I am tired; you give me rest. When I am sad; you are my joy. When life is coming at me from all sides; you are my peace. Father God, thank you so much for sticking with me through thick and thin.
In your Mighty name Jesus, Amen
Remember, Jesus Loves you! Blessings to you and yours today!
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd
Of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every
Weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so
Easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the
Race God has set before us.
Hebrews 12:1 NLT
How well do you persevere and push through when life knocks you down and punches you in the gut? Do you give up and stop trying? God tells us in this verse that we are surrounded by other believers that can witness to us and share their testimony and stories of faith to encourage us to press on to the goal. His word tells us to get rid of everything that is stopping us from achieving his will for our lives and let us run in such a way that no matter what obstacles appear, or how bleak it may look, to never give up.
Perseverance is something that a person develops over time. How do we learn it? By test and trials in our lives- when we must stand in faith and trust the Lord is working on our behalf; even though through our eyes we can’t even begin to imagine how things will work out. Perseverance means crying out to the Lord in all times, not just rough and tumble times, but joyous and good times too. Seek him out and allow him to be your strength when you just don’t think you can take one more rejection or let down.
As children of God, we know that no matter what we face in our lives, he is with us always. The holy spirit lives in each of our hearts. Taking the easy way out of a tough situation, is not being the person God created you to be. He is everything you need. He is enough. Perseverance can be described in this acrostic
P.U.S.H. P=Pray U=Until S=Something H=Happens
As we pray and press on and into Jesus, he will bless us in ways we can’t begin to fathom, but we have to do our part. We can’t just pray and wait for him to do all the work. Perseverance develops character and allows God to mold and shape us into the person he want us to be. We cannot let others cloud our judgement and decision-making. God has a plan for each one of us, and as we are called to fulfill that plan, we must be willing to stand on his promises that he will never leave us or abandon us. He will equip us with all the tools necessary to reach the destination set before us.
I am the Lord; there is no other God. I have equipped you
For battle, though you don’t even know me, so all the world from east to west will know there is no other God. I am the Lord and there is no other.
I create the light and make the darkness. I send good times and bad times, I the Lord, am the one who does these things.
Isaiah 45:5-7 NLT
Challenges are opportunities for us to show others how Great our God is and how he will use every perceived failure to help us reach the ultimate goal set before us.
We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and
Trials, for we know that they help us develop
Endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character
Strengthens our confident hope of salvation.
And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly
God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit
To fill our hearts with his love.
Romans 5:3-5 NLT
The next time you are faced with fear and you think you can’t do what you have been called to do in your life, remember this, Jesus will see you through whatever it is; He will fight for you, simply because you are his child and he loves you.
Never Give Up.
May you know how much God Loves You! Blessings,
When God places something on your heart to extend His Kingdom, are you ready and waiting to walk in obedience? OR Do you think you that you are unqualified?
God provides all the tools we need and equips us for every situation he places us in.
Just as a carpenter has special tools to fine tune his creations, Jesus has his own tools he uses on us and through us. It is not our place to question when we are called, but to have faith that whatever we are tasked to do.
When God asks you to do something, pray for someone, reach out to a stranger, share your testimony; he knows what he is asking. He is asking for you to trust Him with the results. It’s not our job to question or battle with the Lord. God has tugged at my heart many times and pulled me out of my comfort zone. In the 30 second battle in my mind, telling Jesus I couldn’t do it or I was afraid I was too inexperienced, I learned one thing. Jesus doesn’t expect me to do it in my own strength. He expects me to follow his guiding Holy Spirit and trust that no matter what he has called me to, he has gone before me and prepared a way.
Remember when God called Jonah to go to Nineveh to tell them to turn back from their evil ways, but Jonah didn’t want to do it. So he ran and thought he could hide from God on a ship. And the ship was tossed by the angry seas and Jonah was thrown overboard to save the rest of the ship. Just think if Jonah had just done what God commanded him to do, he would have never ended up in the belly of the whale. So once he was spit upon the land by the whale, he still had to go to Nineveh. (See the book of Jonah for more specific details.)Can you imagine what Jonah must have felt, when after all he had been through, he still had to do what God wanted? And then to make matters worse for Jonah, he thought for sure once he delivered the message from God, God would destroy the evil people, but he showed compassion and Jonah was then acting as if he knew what was better, than God.
Jesus knows every battle we face, and he uses the right people at the right time, to offer hope and encouragement, to answer prayers, and by us being obedient to His call, we further His Kingdom here on Earth. It’s not for us to question why me Lord? It’s for us to trust the Holy Spirit that lives in the hearts of all believers and to follow his prompting. He will provide what we need at just the right time. So, the question remains, are you ready?
I pray daily that when God puts something on my heart to write that I share what he wants me to share and that it touches just one life. One person can create a ripple effect, it only takes one to listen and reach out.
John 14:26 New Living Translation (NLT)
26 But when the Father sends the Advocate as my representative—that is, the Holy Spirit—he will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I have told you.
Stay in the Word, pray to God, seek His Will and trust your heart.
Many blessings to you!